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- 2020年6月1日
覚え書き、2
ひとつ前のブログで文章や詩を書くようになった契機をほんの少し記しました。 そしてこんなふうに終えました。 だれからも「夢見がちでファンシーな勘違いちゃん」が書いたと思われたくなかったのですね。 通常と認識されるなかで、詩篇をつくっていこうとしていた。 いま考えれば欲ばりでし
彼ら（男性ばかりです）のことを思い出すと胸が痛いことに変わりはなく、その点でもちろん恩師との差はありません。 では、なにが決定的な打撃だったか。 なぜそんなにショックを受け、かなしみだけで詩篇をたくさん書いたのか。 ……ということはうまく説明できないので詩集『さよなら、ほう、アウルわたしの水』を捲ってくださればうれしいのですが（商売上手！＊Amazonリンクなのでご注意ください）、ともかく言えることは「かなしい」という言葉を使うだけ、それでは足りなかったんです。兪にもなりようがありませんでした。 それらはわたしが感じている、この余りある慟哭を何も伝えられなかった。 だからなんとか伝えようと一冊になるまで書きつづけたのですね。 いまでも覚えているのが、1月1日に亡くなった翌日の
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